Archives for the month of: January, 2015

In the spring of 2008 I found it very easy to refuse to accept where I was with finances. I kept thinking that I was better off in the past–when I was a homeowner and professor in Minnesota–than the present–renting a room, working temporary jobs as document review attorney in the San Francisco area. I would email and call a friend lamenting my life and having a grand pity party. Funny thing was, I was wrong.

In Buddhism and therapeutic approaches (DBT and ACT) there is a concept called Acceptance. The idea is that suffering is alleviated and healing happens when we have a realistic understanding of what is happening and accept this. In Buddhist practice and therapy, understanding can be achieved through mindfulness and meditation (or mindfulness meditation). Once you or I sit in meditation, not judging or evaluating, simply paying attention, we have a clearer picture of ourselves.

A similar principle exists in weight loss and financial responsibility. In weight loss, keeping track of your eating in a food diary allows you to really see what you eat over the course of a day. It is also an incredibly effective (if time consuming) technique. A WebMD article, citing research, states that “people keeping a food diary six days a week lost about twice as much weight as those who kept food records one day a week or less.” Our memories are faulty and we want to protect our ego so we “forget” the 3 samples of banana bread we had while waiting for our Salted Caramel Machiatto. In gaining control of finances and getting out of debt, we need to know what we have, what we make, and what we spend.

We are not mindful and we are attached to our ego so we do not have an accurate picture of our caloric intake or money outflow and we do not accept our starting point.

If we don’t know where we are, we cannot develop a path to where we want to be.

Even as I started to pay down debt, I still thought I my net worth was greater in 2001 than it was in 2008 and 2009, So, at the strong insistence of my friend and financial adviser, I figured out what my net worth was in 2001 versus 2010. Here is what I found:

Taxable Income Jan 1-June 30, 2010: $62,609.11
Highest annual income as professor: $53,403 (2001)
Highest annual income at Barnes and Noble: $15,270 (2005)

In 6 months made 4 times what I did in NC and 17% more than I did as a professor over 12 months.

In fact, using an amortization schedule and an approximate value of $90,000 of my house in 2001, I was wealthier after 6 months in 2010 than I was after 12 as a homeowner and professor in 2001.

Dec 30, 2001:
Equity in House  $      8,149.00
Ford Focus equity  $         500.00
Income  $    53,403.00
Total assets and income:  $    62,502.00
Owed on house  $   (81,851.00)
Credit Card debt  $     (2,000.00)
Student loan balance  $ (108,383.00)
Total liabilities  $ (190,234.00)
2001 Net Worth  $ (127,732.00)
June 30, 2010:
6 months income  $    62,609.11
VW Blue Book  $      4,965.00
Total assets/income:  $    67,574.11
Credit cards (paid off monthly, average monthly total)  $     (1,000.00)
Student loans  $ (112,711.62)
Total liabilities:  $ (113,711.62)
2010 Net Worth  $   (46,137.51)
Difference  $   (81,594.49)

I was better of financially by more than eighty thousand dollars..

Numbers don’t lie–I am better off now than I was during the “hayday” I obsess about.

Once I knew where I really was,and accepted it, I could start planning my finances to get out and stay out of debt..

And I can’t sleep as the numbers are like–kitten bellies.

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Big news since the last post: I PAID OFF THE STUDENT LOAN!

$161,560.02 total. The original principal was just over $100,000 however the forbearance and recapitalized interest increased the principal to just over $124,000. Still, I saved over $70,000 by paying the loan off ahead of schedule.

Combined with the $20,000 in consumer debt and $7900 in car loan, I have paid a grand total of $190,501 in six years. $31,750 per year, on average.

And since paying off credit debt was annoying and paying interest on purchases even more annoying, I have carried a 0 balance on credit cards since 2009.

IT CAN BE DONE!

Today I was putting the numbers in excel to determine if this is the week I finish paying off my student loans. What started as $110,000 and grew to a payment total of $160,000 is now down to $2275. I have an itchy trigger finger that really wants to go to Nelnet and finish it. However I need to be cautious, there are some other big bills coming up that must be paid and I have to see if my classes are a definite go before I can celebrate the loans.